Audrey from Monday Blues to smiles

The Monday blues. After such an amazing weekend filled with a lot of shopping and beautiful sites, I rolled out of bed this morning with little energy and absolutely no want to begin my day. I would say I had a big helping of the Monday blues. For the first time since I began my internship I was not excited to go in and see my students. This possibly came with the fear that this week my teacher was not going to be in and it was planned that I would basically run the class with the over sight of the substitute. Now don’t get me wrong I love to work with students but the more I have to teach the more I realize that I am no where near prepared to be a teacher. I am still in the stage of my life that I would love to be the friend rather than the authority. I understand that there is a possible balance between the two but I have been unable to find it. So how was I going to teach these students when I don’t even take myself seriously?

But as I walked into the classroom and watched all the smiles form on my students face reminded me why I enjoy working with students so much and my Monday blues slowly drifted away. I was able to get them to do their normal tasks in an orderly, calm manner something I have yet to succeed with them without my teachers help. During the break I was still able to hang out with them and laugh with everyone but as the break neared the end I drifted back to the classroom to make sure I would be able to greet them at the door to keep them in order when they arrived at the classroom. Everyday I question my ability to actually teach or if it is the right career for me and everyday I spend with my students even if it is the tiniest thing I am reminded why.

I ended my day at Christel House preparing my students to write their final draft of their first letter to be sent out to Meriden, CT next week. The excitement that arose when I told them we would be finally sending the letters out next week was my reminder today.

~ Obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it ~ Michael Jordan